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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 06:51

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

She loved him until the end.

Ive learnt so much.

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Would this be the day?

I couldn’t, believe it.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

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I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

We were not on the streets..

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

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She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I don,t even have a pension.

She was in good health!

Why is my crush beautiful to me but not to others?

They are buried together, in the same grave..

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

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She found it foreign!.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I was 9 years of age.

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I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I waited trembling.

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He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

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And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

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I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Im still living with it.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

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My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Who then, do I blame.?

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My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

My life is so biszare .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Is it ok to be spanked by your parents if you are not in bed in your set bedtime?

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

What did i know ?

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

And i lived it daily.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

All the time i was locked up.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

He knew the spot.

She married twice! .

But, we were locked up after school.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I could never make a relationship work though!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I will be 64.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I was seconnd youngest,

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Was to survive, this bastard.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Put me off passion for life!!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Why did i forgive my father ?

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

My family never makes their pension either.

She wouldn,t have been !

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Comes on , in middle age.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

One cannot live in the past .

I write beautiful poetry .

But ive been too sick for many years..

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I think the readers, may guess!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

So whats the point in blame.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

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And who doesn’t know suffering?

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

(And it was in our own minds.)

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I was very sick at this time too.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I have no regrets .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I said to her

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I was scared of men, in general

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

When she asked me how she looked .

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I never cut or harmed myself..

He resisted the act ,that day.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

It was going to be , some day.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

As i do to all so called friends.?

But it wasn’t much.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

So, i spoilt her more .

We all went to grammer schools

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

This is soul school!.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?